The Damned Beautifull Memories
After long time I decided to write this.
Before or after I go to sleep this memory comes up again. It's long gone years ago, but why come back now? Is this some kind of sign You gave me or what? or it's just some pass by memories.
I think it was strange because I can remember every detail when it happens. The warm hand that holds my hands, the mind who's always remembering me to always conquer my fear through her mouth, the action that makes me always realize whatever it is. I still remember the warmth she gave to me. Why now? I already had somebody else.
lately, my mind disturbed by her thoughts. So strong until when I woke up from bed I want her so bad by my side and I want my old times with her. It was irreplaceable. But when I regain my consciousness I realize, I'm not with her anymore. And after that, all day my mood turn goes bad.
Day by day passing by, learning try to accept the reality. I know my girl always trying to do her best to caring me, but somehow I still want more. I've been trying to contact her again, slowly I regain my relation with her until it was reach its climax. Now, I can't contact her again. Don't know why, she suddenly gone. I can't contact her. Really, it felt hurt. Until I gave up, and hoping that she'll be alright.
I already had my own reality, past is past.
I don't know how long until this ended, or maybe how long I could stand.
Before or after I go to sleep this memory comes up again. It's long gone years ago, but why come back now? Is this some kind of sign You gave me or what? or it's just some pass by memories.
I think it was strange because I can remember every detail when it happens. The warm hand that holds my hands, the mind who's always remembering me to always conquer my fear through her mouth, the action that makes me always realize whatever it is. I still remember the warmth she gave to me. Why now? I already had somebody else.
lately, my mind disturbed by her thoughts. So strong until when I woke up from bed I want her so bad by my side and I want my old times with her. It was irreplaceable. But when I regain my consciousness I realize, I'm not with her anymore. And after that, all day my mood turn goes bad.
Day by day passing by, learning try to accept the reality. I know my girl always trying to do her best to caring me, but somehow I still want more. I've been trying to contact her again, slowly I regain my relation with her until it was reach its climax. Now, I can't contact her again. Don't know why, she suddenly gone. I can't contact her. Really, it felt hurt. Until I gave up, and hoping that she'll be alright.
I already had my own reality, past is past.
I don't know how long until this ended, or maybe how long I could stand.
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